This is a morning where i kind of dislike my body. I won’t say hate, because that’s not the case. I’m just tired of some of its issues.
There is something wrong with my body that i’ve never been able to find an answer about: i have to sleep in certain positions, otherwise i wake up because it hurts to breathe. It’s not a lung-pain, and i’m not short of breath when this happens. It’s a pain that wraps around my waist, and the pain fades after i sit up for a bit.
I’ve learned that i can’t sleep on my back or my stomach. I have to sleep curled up on my side, with my back curved forward. Kind of a half-fetal position. I can sleep on either side this way, but any other position wakes me up from the pain after about 4-5 hours.
I don’t think this is because i’m fat; i don’t believe it is related to my size. For a while, i did think it was size-related (because i thought most/all of my health issues were because i was fat)… but i had more than a few occasions to compare notes with other fat friends who did not have the same problem. I’ve mentioned this issue a few times on the net, and i’ve run into maybe one other person who experienced something similar.
My fibromyalgia is sleep-related. The worse my sleep, the worse my symptoms. I’ve never been a good sleeper. Sometimes i wonder if this mystery pain is more symptom or more cause.